I went through a phase in life where I truely felt that I didn’t bring much to the world. And you know what? I was probably right!!
Of course I was a reliable and loving friend, I had a great relationship with my family and everything was going great. (on the outside)
I just didn’t feel fulfilled. The idea that this as my life and thats it was SO boring to me.
I hated the idea of making my life about what I looked like. Because that is a never ending task. You will never get to the point where you’re like “oh ok I’m good. I’m pretty now”.
It just doesn’t work that way.
I wanted to create a life where I felt I had true value through my gifts and abilities and actual skills because we all know that beauty fades but dumb is forever… Too harsh? haha.
I found myself getting super anxious thinking about what other people were thinking about me. How original – I know.
So one summer afternoon my sister and I were sitting on my bed talking about this very subject when I had enough. I made a pledge to turn my personal instagram account into an art account and only post content about my art.
I made a commitment to making something out of this hobby that I did every now and then.
The act of creating, and taking the focus off myself and putting it into a skill that I could pour myself into and get better at every day excited me and gave me a sense of excitement and hope.
I read SO many articles. I watched so many youtube tutorials. I did online courses and I absorbed every amount of information about drawing that I possibly could.
You may be aware that the right and left sides of your brain are used for different tasks.
Basically the left side is used for analytical and numerical processes and the right side is predominately used for creative activities.
When I was creating I could feel a noticeable shift in the way I was thinking.
When in the past I would over think and over analyse everything, while I was drawing time would slip away and I found myself completely immersed in the act of drawing and creating. Even if the sketch didn’t turn out so well it never seemed to matter, I had just escaped for an afternoon without even leaving the house.
This is why I constantly encourage my friends and anyone I meet to use the creative side of their brain. Even if you don’t consider yourself creative, YOU ARE. you just don’t realise it.
Drawing counts as art therapy and is used by many professionals to help children, adolescents, and adults explore their emotions, improve self-esteem, manage addictions, relieve stress, improve symptoms of anxiety and depression, and cope with a physical illness or disability.
How amazing is that!
You don’t have to be an artist to participate in art.
It doesn’t need to be perfect and you don’t need to hang it on your wall at the end (however that would be super fun too!).
Ever have an afternoon off and don’t feel like wasting away in front of a screen?
Take some time, buy some inexpensive watercolours from the store, sit in the sun if you can, and paint or draw whatever comes.
You are amazing. You can do this!
love, Carls x